I woke this morning not particularly in a great mood. For some reason or another from the time my feet barely hit the floor I was already feeling stressed.
I barked my 'motherly orders' of the morning, not really setting the tone of the day for the household as I should have. I locked the door behind us and we were off to face another day.
The moment I punched the clock I knew things weren't going to get any better. The stress began to esculate. Things that didn't change my stress level for the better that's for sure.
I entered my office. Did the usual routine. But something was different. There lying on my desk was a small beautiful book titled,
Psalms Journal. Pricked with interest, I randomly opened it. My eyes falling on the words,
The Lord's Enduring Faithfulness. One of my dearest friends (and close co-worker) had left it there for me. Three scriptures accompanied this heading. I knew immediatly that this was a "God Wink" moment.
But I was still too wrapped up in 'the now' to release my negative emotions. To release my stress to my loving, faithful Lord. After all, didn't He know already the things that were taking place presently? Didn't He know that...hey, I'm STILL searching for a new job? Hello.
I continued to work on various tasks with the same mindset. Negative over-riding the Positive. My day was soon to wrap up, and 2:30 couldn't come fast enough. I glanced at my desk calendar, realizing that I hadn't as yet flipped the page to today's date. I nonchalantly flipped the page, still thinking on what a hard day it had been, yet still trying to hold on to some positive thought, most likely out of sheer desparation. As my fingers touched the page to turn it, I thought "at least I have a job right now". Then another "GOD WINK" happened. My eyes landed on the day's quote:
None of us knows what the next change is going to be, what unexpected opportunity is just around the corner, waiting to change all the tenor of our lives. -Kathleen Norris
"Hmm, how true", I thought. How true it is that you can be moving right along in life and then suddenly seemingly out of nowhere you find yourself staring straight into a corner of a wall that didn't even appear there before. Life is full of change. Full of opportunity. Now that is a positive word. Opportunity.
I went on about my work day. Still holding to the negative. Still feeling glum, shunned, and at times outright mad.
Turning to my computer, I checked my email. Then another "GOD WINK" happened. The title of the email read: Bible Verse Exchange. It was from a co-woker that I rarely get a chance to talk to. She knew NOTHING about how my day was going. The Bible verse:
Isaiah 40:29, 31 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Later this evening the scripture text Isaiah 41:10 dropped in my head. I picked up my Bible and read the passage, astonished at its words for I had originally thought it would say something else. This is what it says....
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
What enduring faithfulness!!! My Lord tried all day long to lift my spirits up above my circumstance! All day long He tried to perserve my heart, my mind, my spirit!!! He winked at me all day and I was too wrapped up in earthly moments to pay Him close attention. Too wrapped up in my fears. I was too wrapped up in myself, and not making sure that I was wrapped up in His loving arms. Yet in this very moment I find that, yes, He's still ever so enduring. No, today was not a good day in many ways, but I still serve a God who is always good. He's good in innumerable ways. ;-)