Let's be honest here. Today has been hard. It's cold outside. Icy conditions. And, because of recent developments, I'm battling to ward off icy conditions in my heart. Trying to ward off the pain. Trying to ward off hate. Trying to ward of bitterness due to my overwhelming, never ending situation. Basically trying to breathe in and feel God's presence today. Trying to feel that peace that passes all understanding...Broken Dreams...what is the purpose of them?
For nothing makes sense at this moment.
So, with the office closed today due to the weather, I've been reading over some writings of mine, trying to fill the time. Time alone. And I came across this one. It helped to read it. Hope you are blessed by it too.
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Most all the significant structures that represent past "milestones" of my life are now literally no longer in existance. The place I met my husband, the place where I was proposed to, and also my very first own home; all are gone. They literally went up in ashes.
Why, then, is it so hard for the memories not to do the same?? The broken dreams...I wish would disappear.
Isaiah 43:18, Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.
To all those that have reaccuring thoughts of the past, those resurrecting thoughts you thought were long-gone-dead, I invite you to join me. I invite you to join me in closing a chapter that needs forgotten. God invites us to forget. I encourage you (as well as myself) with these words:
You can't read two chapters at the same time. Don't go back and re-read the same-old-same old. Close that chapter in your life. Move on...read on...to your future. Let the Old get dusty on your "Life Bookshelf". Quit picking the book up and reading what has already been and lifting it up for re-examination. That was then, this is now. Close the chapter, let it go.
A bright future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
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I so thought I was doing a good job at doing just that!!! :-) Yet I find that for the past several months and recent days...it is not the case.
Leaning into His grace today...Lord, please catch me! I'm not even sure that You are there right now. Help me to really believe that you are doing a new (good) thing in/for my life! Shine brighter than the brightest star in the darkness I'm presently in. Help me to not fear man & circumstance when I know that You are the One who put the very galaxies in place. Nothing is too hard for You!!! So, take me, help me to be an overcomer! Fill me with courage and strength. Help me to fall on You.
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