Hopeful Days

Psalm 90:12  So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.

The last 20 years of my life are a blur, filled a lot with the feeling of hopelessness.  Not complaining, just stating a fact!  So much has happened.  Lots of wonderful moments.  Lots of sad moments.  In reflection I think how very tragically sad it is that I seemed to have spent 2 decades of my life just trying to find myself again, and NOT feel like a little fawn on ice desperately trying to keep my feet under me.

Bambi comes to mind right now. Yes, I read the BOOK and heard the cassette. :)  and enjoyed it as a child.  -lol   There's even been a few well-meaning Thumpers in my life who tried to convincingly tell me, "Look, the water is stiff".  And while that may have been obviously true, in some moments it really didn't mean anything to me.  The water still felt dangerous.  When you're feeling out of control, So what if the water is stiff, right? 

I say this with a smile now.  Only because God has proven to be my refuge and sustainer. 

Life is short.  Just this week I've been smacked right between the eyes regarding this very statement.  Lots of memories, namely concerning my life and motherhood, have been a lot on my mind this week.  Sadly, because I didn't apply my heart to much wisdom in my younger days and other various and sundry events that have taken place, I feel like I've lost a lot of valuable time in this area.  So much of my time has been spent trying to straighten out this "pretzel", my pretzel, called Life.  Thankfully God has kept me.  He is the rest wherein the weary find rest, and where the shards of glass have fallen, He has picked each one up and made a beautiful mosaic.

He's God like that! And only He can do that. :)      

For the last couple of years, as the New Year has rolled around, I like to think of a phrase, a scripture, or a word that I can carry with me throughout the year. 

2016.....the word is HOPE

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Teach us, Lord, to number our days. 

This is not so much that we are taught our numbers, no, not by any means.  But that in each day we are graciously given we may APPLY our heart to wisdom.  

If you learn from the mistake, therein is the beginning of hope.  And.....

HOPE is not a wish, it's an expectation. 

Yes, life is fleeting, but each day is a gift.  Use it wisely.  If God has placed a dream in your heart, go for it.  Just make sure it's God. 

We have been given only a certain number of days to live, and in each one of us, only God gets to know that time-frame.  In light of eternity our days are as the number of fingers on our hands (or less).  That's really not a drop in the bucket, my friend.  So make the 'dash' count for the good. 

Whatever we gather, build, attain in this life is NOTHING compared to the eternal weight of glory we one day shall receive.  We must work to show our self approved.  We must live in faith.  Walk in wisdom.  The reward is truly out of this world!!! 

Live wisely and you will live well.  Give Jesus every fragmented piece of you and let Him remake you if need be.  You can't change your yesterdays, but you have been given today...and you can choose TODAY to make a better choice for a brighter tomorrow.  You can stop wishing and start hoping.  

We know in order to expect anything there must first come some application.   

Apply yourself to wisdom.  Focus your heart on the right things and your life will be abundantly blessed. 

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